Day Twenty-One

Day Twenty-One

Thinspo of the Day: City girl

6/28 Journal Entry:

3,700 squats reached (average of 176 per day)

How I seized the day:

• 100 squat challenge (x2)
• Vicky Justiz 100 squat challenge
• 100 Russian twists

Day Twenty

Day Twenty 

Thinspo of the Day: Maldives model

6/27 Journal Entry:

I'm not going to post my weight for a while because it's discouraging. Rest assured I'm not giving up. I've now reached over 3,400 squats.

How I seized the day:

• 100 squat challenge (x2)
• Vicky Justiz 100 squat challenge
• 100 Russian twists

Day Nineteen - Late Post

Day Nineteen - weight unknown, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Flat stomach

6/27 Journal Entry: 

N/A

How I seized the day:

• 100 squat challenge (x2)
• Vicky Justiz 100 squat challenge
• 100 Russian twists

Day Eighteen

Day Eighteen - 157.6, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Beach girl

6/25 Journal Entry:

Weighed myself this morning, before I ate, and was pleased to see a change. I need to stop weighing myself after I've eaten. I've now reached a total of 2,800 squats.

How I seized the day:

• 100 squat challenge (x2)
• Vicky Justiz 100 squat challenge
• 100 Russian twists

Day Seventeen

Day Seventeen - 157.8, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Yacht girl II

6/24 Journal Entry: 

I gained 1/5th of a pound, which I'm not too upset about. Consistency is key, and weight loss isn't magic, so I know my weight will keep coming down if I don't give up.

I bought some new exercise clothes (VS sports bra, capris with neon stripes, neon tank top). I find that exercise clothes are great motivation, even if you just wear them while doing home workouts.

I'm trying to pick a gym to join, since my university's gym is under construction. I'm deciding between Anytime Fitness and LA Fitness. Anytime Fitness is cheaper, slightly closer, has better reviews, and is open 24 hrs. However, it requires you to come in and take a tour (you can't just purchase a membership online).

Now at over 2,500 squats, even though I accidentally stepped on a nail and destroyed my left foot.

How I seized the day:

• 100 squat challenge (x2)
• 100 Russian twists

Day Sixteen

Day Sixteen - 157.6, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Hiking girl

6/23 Journal Entry:

Measured myself this morning, and found that I lost even more weight! Now at over 2,300 squats since June 8th. 

How I seized the day:

• 100 squat challenge (x2)
• Vicky Justiz 100 squat challenge (x2)
• Some of the XHIT Daily flat stomach workout
• 200 russian twists

Day Fifteen

Day Fifteen - 158.4, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Jungle girl

6/22 Journal Entry:

The new scale came! It measures every 2/5th pound, whereas my old scale only measured every half pound. It's really thin and beautiful. Now, I know my weight really came down to 158.4. I'm proud of myself. I've now reached over 1,900 squats, since I did 300 today.

How I seized the day:

• 100 squat challenge (x3)

Day Fourteen

Day Fourteen - 158 Pounds, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Hiking girls

6/21 Journal Entry: 

I am more motivated than ever. I weighed myself this morning (multiple times to confirm the reality), and found that I lost a pound! A whole pound! I went out with my friends and bought a $15 Victoria's Secret sports bra, thanks to the semi-annual sale. 

Today is the fourteenth day of my squat challenge. I have completed over 1,600 squats since the start of the challenge (on two days, including this one, I did 200, and on some other days I did additional squats). I am planning to continue for 100 days, or until I move into my apartment and my roommates deem it weird.

How I seized the day:

• 100 squat challenge (x2) - 10 reps with 10 pound weight

Day Thirteen

Day Thirteen - 159 Pounds, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Sailing girl

6/20 Journal Entry:

Happy summer solstice (first day of summer) everyone! I got my squats done early so I can do more exercises later on.

How I seized the day:

• 100 squat challenge - 20 reps with ten pound weight; 10 reps of jump squats
• Repeated the challenge without weight

Day Twelve - Late Post

Day Twelve - 159 Pounds, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Vanessa Hudgens

6/19 Journal Entry:

I had a really long day at work, and my legs really hurt by the end of it, but I still made time to exercise. I'm super excited to have lost 1/2 of a pound.

How I seized the day:

• 100 rep squat challenge - 30 reps with 10 pound weight

Day Eleven

Day Eleven - Weight unknown, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Burning Man girl

6/18 Journal Entry: 

Still waiting for my scale. My measurements haven't changed. I guess I'll talk a bit about the thinspo. Burning Man is an iconic example of self-expression and being who you truly are. In order to express myself fully, I need to be in a smaller body. It's a mental thing. My current state isn't who I am. It's who I am after surrendering to indulgences, my depression, and the like.

How I seized the day:

• 1.4 mile walk around a lake
• 70 curl-ups
• 100 rep squat challenge - 30 reps with 10 pound weight

Day Ten

Day Ten - Weight unknown, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Gym girl

6/17 Journal Entry:

My scale is super broken. I put a 10-pound dumbbell on it to test and it said 11.5 pounds. I tried weighing myself multiple times without moving the scale, and I got many different measurements. Now it's just reading, "error." I can't wait until the new scale gets here. In the meantime I'm going to measure body parts (rounded).

Center part of thigh: 20'' 

Center part of leg below knee: 14''

Upper arm: 11''

How I seized the day: 

• 100 rep squat challenge - 30 reps with 10 pound weight
• 100 curl-ups
• 5 minute butt workout - frequent breaks

Bonus motivation: 

Day Nine

Day Nine - 159.5 Pounds(?), 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Fit girl

6/16 Journal Entry:

I think I figured it out. When I moved my scale to different points on the floor, my weight changed. So, my current scale is probably faulty. I just bought this scale from Bed Bath & Beyond with a gift card one of my friends gave me for my birthday. We'll see if the new scale gives a more accurate or different result!

My friend and I have plans to get navel piercings in July, so I need to work!

How I seized the day:

• 100 rep squat challenge - 30 reps with 10 pound weight
• 100 curl-ups

Day Eight - Late Post

Day Eight - 159.5 Pounds(?), 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: 2016 fitspo video

6/15 Journal Entry:

I've had this fitspo video on repeat for the past couple weeks. I find thinspo videos to be demoralizing and disturbing.

How I seized the day:

• 100 rep squat challenge - 30 reps with 10 pound weight
• 50 curl-ups 

Day Seven

Day Seven - 159.5 Pounds, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Keira Knightley in Atonement

6/14 Journal Entry:

You know what's hard? Losing weight when you're constantly busting your ass at work and just want a single piece of chocolate during your break.

How I seized the day: 

• 100 rep squat challenge - 30 reps with 10 pound weight
• 10 more squats to reach 700 total (10,000 final goal) - 100 days of 100 squats each day
• 10 more squats

Day Six

Day Six - 159.5 Pounds, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Modern hippies

6/13 Journal Entry:

I'm not seeing the numbers on the scale go down, which scares me quite a bit. I understand that the composition of my body might be changing for the better, but I want to lose weight too.

One of the reasons I posted this photo in particular is because I adore modern "boho" fashion. I love round sunglasses, palazzo pants, flower crowns, and the like. I want to look good in those things. I don't want wide-leg pants to be tight on me.

How I seized the day:

• 100 rep squat challenge - 30 reps with 10 pound weight
• Hiking in Meadowbrook Park 

Day Five

Day Five - 159.5 Pounds, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Girls on yacht

6/12 Journal Entry: 

It's honestly frustrating to see the number on the scale not moving. I made three food mistakes today: eating three milano cookies, eating a large portion of spaghetti, and eating too many chips. For some reason I lack motivation today and my depression is at the forefront of my mind. 

How I seized the day: 

8:00 PM: 100 rep squat challenge - 30 reps with 10 pound weight
8:24 PM: 20 curl-ups
8:29 PM: 20 more curl-ups
8:37 PM: 20 more curl-ups

Day Four

Day Four - 159.5 Pounds, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Thin best friends

6/11 Journal Entry: 

I'm more inspired than ever right now. I'm going to Victoria's Secret soon and I'm going to get a bra that fits. By exercising and eating less, I know I'm going to achieve my dreams. I can't afford to let myself down.

How I seized the day:

• 100 rep squat challenge
• 60 curl-ups
• 20 more squats

Day Three - Late Post

Day Three - 159.5 Pounds, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Thigh gap

6/10 Journal Entry: 

Let myself down a little by eating Soft Stuff (ice cream) on my work break, but I still lost weight.

How I seized the day:

100 rep squat challenge

Day Two

Day Two - 160.5 Pounds, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Flat stomach with navel piercing

6/9 Journal Entry:

So it looks like I gained weight, or I measured incorrectly yesterday, or whatever. I've been eating considerably less and avoiding snacking, so I should see that number drop soon.

How I seized the day: 

11:00 PM: 100 rep squat challenge (completed this time)

New goals:

• Thigh gap
• Flat stomach
• Belly button piercing

Day One - Beginning of a Journey

Day One - 159 Pounds, 5'8''

Thinspo of the Day: Miranda Kerr

6/8 Journal Entry:

Weight gain didn't just impact my physical appearance. It also led to the depression I'm currently suffering from. I have horrible cramps and I loathe the way I look. Every day, I make excuses for my weight, but it's time to take some responsibility.

Some sad moments that led to the creation of this blog and this post: looking fat in jeans, looking fat in crop tops, looking fat in relation to everyone else (being the fattest girl in the room), not being able to wear half my dresses, developing depression, sucking in my stomach, reaching 160 pounds, getting called out by my doctor

How I seized the day:

5:46 PM: 20 curl-ups

7:28 PM: 20 more curl-ups

7:34 PM: 100 rep squat challenge - stopped at sumo kicks

7:50 PM: 20 more curl-ups 

7:57 PM: Beginning of XHIT Daily thigh exercise video

8:13 PM: 12 minutes of dancing to this thinspo video

Goals: 

• 130 Pounds
• Happiness 
• Post on /r/progresspics (Reddit)
• Feeling sexy
• Attending a music festival